Saying goodbye

Yesterday I traveled roughly 2800 miles, from Oregon to North Carolina. This trip is overdue but absolutely necessary at this time.

My dear Granny is getting close to the end, as hard as it is to say. She had a stroke a month ago and hasn’t been home since then. She has been in the hospital but has currently been in a rehab facility for more than 3 weeks now.

I honestly didn’t know if I was going to make it in time but I did. That was hard, all of this is. I made this trip solo but I’m still with family. She is hanging on.

The other hard part is I’m away from my husband and daughter. I have never been away from my daughter for more than a night.

I’m holding it together right now, mostly. My plan is to head home on Saturday. I do know that I made the right decision to come now. I didn’t want to regret not coming.

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I’m still here

I didn’t know it was possible, but I think I got busier. I recently realized it’s been 6 months or so since I wrote anything here. I will try to give a quick update and hopefully go more in depth later on.

  • We’ve been homeowners for 6 months now! We’ve settled into our new home and are enjoying all of the extra space.
  • Our sweet girl just keeps growing and growing! We have a talker in her but she can be shy around new people. She is amazing and I’m still so grateful I am her mom. Even when she tests her boundaries.
  • I took a big step out of my comfort zone and have been really focusing on my health and fitness. I’m seriously loving it and the results I’ve gotten! My life is changing for the better because of it!

Things are happening!

Do you ever have a moment where you’re so excited for something but also stressed about it at the same time? This is me right now.

We bought a house! It is a great house, nearly twice the size of our house right now. I think we got a great deal on it. There were other offers so it blew me away when they accepted ours! This means we’ll be moving in 2 weeks. I’m stressing about that but I’m sure we’ll have plenty of help. I’m trying to take it one day at a time and not worry but we’ve got some work to do! Soon it will all be worth it.

Belated Christmas wish 

I hope you all had a safe and enjoyable Christmas. I’m sorry for the absence but I do still read up on your blogs. 

We had a great Christmas. I have been off work for a week and I don’t go back until next week. I have been enjoying that extra time with my girl, for sure. It actually snowed on Christmas eve and that almost snarled our plans for that evening but we made it work. It really was only about an inch but in this city, that’s enough to cause accidents. After last year’s snowstorm, I am NOT a fan. I know the snow can be pretty but trying to travel in it is a joke here. 

We didn’t let the unexpected snow and ice ruin our holiday. We saw Santa, our families, and Zoolights all in the past few days. MacKenzie loves to look at the lights on the Christmas tree. It really is magical seeing it all through her eyes. 

18 months

It’s crazy to think my daughter is now 18 months old. To think of our first moments together, to now, she is growing and showing her personality so much! There are times I am just in awe of her. She babbles a lot, knows plenty of words and understands us well, at least I think so. Her favorite animal is a dog, because she hasn’t met a dog she doesn’t like. 

Don’t get me wrong, she is still a toddler. Sometimes it appears she is upset for no reason. And she certainly challenges us. I wouldn’t trade it though because she is ours. 

Missing

I don’t know if I’ve just been preoccupied lately or what but I haven’t even thought about blogging until the last week or so. I enjoy reading the blogs I follow, I just haven’t wanted to write perhaps.

There have been a few things going on. It’s crazy to think that August is almost here. Let’s see how much I can get in before baby girl wakes up from her nap.

  • We took MacKenzie on her first camping trip at the end of June. The first night did not go well. I’m talking hysterically crying for about 90 minutes. We gave up and drove to my in-laws vacation home. She passed out 10 minutes into that car ride. The next night went much better. All in all, it was mostly successful. She didn’t get sunburned and only had a couple bug bites I think.
  • Last June I had a biopsy done on my cervix after testing positive for HPV. Talk about some scary shit. It was the same results in December and in May so they wanted to do another biopsy. When it came time for that, there was nothing to biopsy! I have never been so excited for a normal pap smear result! This was such a HUGE relief.
  • My grandparents are going to be in town soon and I am so excited to see them! This will be their first time meeting MacKenzie! We had thought about going to visit them but this works out pretty well. It will be great for them to meet each other.

This summer seems to be flying by but we are doing our best to enjoy it. We’ve had some consistently warm weather but nothing too hot, thankfully. We bought a zoo membership for the year and we’ve gone twice already. We plan to take a day trip to the beach very soon. I will admit, sometimes we are lazy and just want to stay inside in the cool AC. I hope you’re all enjoying your summer!

 

Family

I know I’ve been quiet. I’ll be honest, I haven’t made it a priority to write. Sometimes time just gets away from us. I don’t think my life is super exciting but it is more exciting since becoming a mom.

Things have been pretty good lately. Last month I was off of work for 10 days which was great. My company shuts down for a few days every year for maintenance and whatnot. I lucked out, it wouldn’t have been as many days off. We went out of town to see some good friends of ours and I requested time off (just a day) before knowing the exact days of the shutdown. It was a great weekend! Normally when we go down to see our friends, it’s only for a night. We stayed 2 nights this time so it was quite relaxing.

MacKenzie is doing great too. She can be a handful but she is a lot of fun. She has started to have mini tantrums, they are over quickly which is good. But they’re still tantrums. She talks a lot, babbles really but she knows a few words. She says mom, dad, dog, hi, ball, and no (yes, already!). She doesn’t sit still for very long! I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’m not sure if I have ever shared about my grandparents but they celebrated 72 years of marriage yesterday! Sadly they live on the opposite side of the country. I have thought about going out there to visit them so that they could meet MacKenzie but that is a long flight. I’m still debating because they are thinking about coming here to visit this summer. That would be great but if its too much for them to travel, I would try to go see them.

I can’t believe summer is almost here! Hope you’re all doing well.

Proud 

Can I just take a minute and be proud of myself? I am 10 lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight! It feels good to be able to say that. When I had MacKenzie, I wasn’t sure how my weight would go. I was able to breastfeed for about 3 months. I wish I could have longer but I did my best. My girl is healthy and I can’t ask for much more. (She’s around the 90th percentile for height and weight!) Considering how far we have come, I’d say we are doing a good job. She loves to eat just about anything. 

A horrible sickness made its way into our house recently. I think I am finally at the tail end of it. I have been coughing so much that I think I bruised a rib. Perhaps when that pain in my chest subsidies, I will try to resume exercising. 

I hope you’re all staying healthy. 

1 year

Can I just say, I find it crazy that my baby girl is now a year old!? I am so proud of that little girl and I’m so happy she is my daughter. 

I love this little girl so much! 

Missing 

It has been a while since I have been here. I still follow and read your blogs. Lately I just can’t even start writing. I am going to try and update you. 

I have been a little stressed lately. I think I am managing it? I am doing my best to stay sane but sometimes I just feel “off”. I’m not the only one who has days like this, right? I basically have days where I don’t feel like myself. There’s really no other way to put it. 

I’m not sure if I have ever talked much about my younger sister. About a year ago she made some unwise choices. It has taken a lot of work to get where she is now. She had to face the consequences but she is now moving forward. She is 10 months sober and counting. I believe she is more focused than ever on staying positive and growing as a person. She also has found a great guy. She is happy and that’s what is most important. 

My baby girl is almost a toddler! She is walking now! She is so much fun. I know I have said this before, but she is such a happy girl. Seeing her happy makes me happy. We are planning a birthday party at our home and trying to keep it small. Our home is small so hopefully the weather isn’t too bad. I’d love it to be a dry day. Fingers crossed! (We have had a LOT of rain lately.)

Our dog has been healing nicely from his surgery. We were finally able to resume short walks a few weeks ago. In a few more weeks, he should be able to return to daycare and see his buddies! 

That’s all for now, I’m sure there is more. I hope you all enjoy your weekend.